(This is kinda long sorry)
So I was chillin on FB and I came across my ex page who happens to be on the friends list of one of my buddies... and seeing him brought up some old questions. Its been 5 years, 5 freaking years since we broke up and 4 years since we spoke and to this day I still wonder why we broke up. At the time he game me a bullshit ass reason of why we couldn't be together. Wait before I go into his "reason" let me back up a bit and tell you how we even got to that point....
Ok so he came to my house we were chillin solo everything was cool (so I thought) but after he leaves like that night and the next like couple of days he was acting kinda strange like he wasnt as responsive as he used to be, he didnt call as much and when we did talk it seemed like he didnt even really want to be on the phone...
So I decided to ask him where do we stand and he gets all upset like what do you mean where do we stand, what did i just say to you last night (I Love You) and all this stuff. And Im like you why are you getting so upset Im just asking a question cause things seem different yadda yadda yadda some other stuff was said but i cant remember anyway he's like I gotta call you back....
I think like a week or 2 week by and I got no phone call from him so in my head im already thinking we're headed towards spitsville and i wasn't gonna call but my bestfriend was like i think you should call him and like a fool i did...
the conversation was literally like 5 or 10 mins long it was like talking to a stranger, just a bunch of awkward silence I asked him why he did call and he's like he was still mad (Im like really over that) but he was gonna call (yeah right) anyway we got into an argument and that calls is over...
another week goes by I call and leave a message that went something like this "I dont know whats going on, I haven'e talked to you in awhile so when you get this message call me back if you dont then i take it as you dont want to be together" or something like that...
a few hours later he calls me back it was basically a break up call talking about he hasnt been home and he need time to think and he had to talk to his friends about this (im thinking you talking to everybody else about us, except for the person you need to be talking to..ME) blah blah blah so the bottom line is he want to break up... and his reason "I WAS SO HURT BY WHAT YOU SAID AND YOU MADE ME SO MAD AND I DONT EVER WANT TO BE THAT MAD AT YOU AGAIN BECAUSE I LOVE YOU" ....
so you cant be with me because you dont want to get mad at me ummmmm OK. and all this because I asked where do we stand? Literally thats all I asked and this is the result ummm OK... all this coming from the same dude who just a few weeks ago cried at the THOUGHT of us not being together and from the same dude who said if i cheated then HE WOULD JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT because he loved me to much to lose me again UMMMMM OK....
so at the time I didnt even really process his reason so i didnt think about it until waaay later and i never really got the chance to ask him what his real reason was because I KNOW that, that cannot be his real reason its to dumb...
so after all this time he still has a teeny tiny extra itty bitty hold on me because idk the real reason why we broke up so to me that chapter is unfinished, dont get me wrong I have definitely turned the page but every so often I go back because I cant wrap my mind around the fuckery that was him and his reason....
so i hope one day to run into him strike up a conversation (initiated by him) and get a chance to ask him like for real for real why did you break up with me I mean I think I have an idea why but I want to know what you have to say... after that i would be perfectly happy if i never heard from or seen him again because that chapter will finally be fucking closed
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
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Thursday, April 22, 2010
Sudden case of Amnesia
Why is it that after something doesnt go someones way with another person, some people get sooo butt hurt by it that they now want to act like they do not know the person. Like you might call, text or talk to them through some form of social network (Twitter,Facebook, Myspace etc.) and they be like umm Who is this? Do I know you?....
UMMMM we've been talking and chilling for the last couple of weeks/months etc..... I would think that you do know me! LOL I think its funny because I guess the idea behind it is to act like you dont care about the person or whatever, when the fact that you're trying so hard to act like this person doesnt exist, in my opinion shows you DO care. Maybe waaaay more than you want to but you still care....
People do the same sh*t in person to like you'll be at a club or maybe shopping or eating or something and you see the person, for you there's no "love" lost, you know its all good so you might wave, smile or speak. But this person is so scorned over what you did or didnt do, said or didnt say that they walk right past or look away like they didnt see you, but we all know that they did.
Im writing about this because this happened to me recently, a dude that I had been conversing with for a cool little minute asked me to do something that I didnt want to do (it was vulgar) I told him to relax (WOOSAH lol), He calls I dont answer (because I was mad at that time), I guess he got mad and we didnt talk for like 2 weeks so the other day Im bored stuck in the house cause its raining and theres not much to do, Im scrolling through my phone and I come across his number so Im like let me text him just to say hey you know see wassup. I'm thinking to myself "I bet he gonna try to play that roll like he dont know who this is". Low and behold when he text back it says WHO IS THIS?
I just started laughing like wow he really did that damn. So I said ok either I'll just text back LOL NVM FORGET ABOUT IT or I'll play his little game.... I was bored so I played along for a bit. I said is this _____? He text back yeah.... I send a picture....NO ANSWER. LOL now if he trully didnt know me or if he was good at playing the game he would have text back SORRY I STILL DONT KNOW WHO THIS IS.... or something along those lines.
So now not only do I KNOW that YOU KNOW exactly who this is, I know your obviously still upset that things didnt go your way. This coming from a grown ass man thats almost 30? Its so immature grown up be a man about yours and just say I dont want to talk to you for whatever reason and move on. Im a grown ass woman I can handle it trust me it's not going to make or break me.
After that I LMAO, Shrugged my shoulders and went back to watching TV, it didnt hurt my feelings and I have no hard feelings about it. It provided a wonderful laugh lol
UMMMM we've been talking and chilling for the last couple of weeks/months etc..... I would think that you do know me! LOL I think its funny because I guess the idea behind it is to act like you dont care about the person or whatever, when the fact that you're trying so hard to act like this person doesnt exist, in my opinion shows you DO care. Maybe waaaay more than you want to but you still care....
People do the same sh*t in person to like you'll be at a club or maybe shopping or eating or something and you see the person, for you there's no "love" lost, you know its all good so you might wave, smile or speak. But this person is so scorned over what you did or didnt do, said or didnt say that they walk right past or look away like they didnt see you, but we all know that they did.
Im writing about this because this happened to me recently, a dude that I had been conversing with for a cool little minute asked me to do something that I didnt want to do (it was vulgar) I told him to relax (WOOSAH lol), He calls I dont answer (because I was mad at that time), I guess he got mad and we didnt talk for like 2 weeks so the other day Im bored stuck in the house cause its raining and theres not much to do, Im scrolling through my phone and I come across his number so Im like let me text him just to say hey you know see wassup. I'm thinking to myself "I bet he gonna try to play that roll like he dont know who this is". Low and behold when he text back it says WHO IS THIS?
I just started laughing like wow he really did that damn. So I said ok either I'll just text back LOL NVM FORGET ABOUT IT or I'll play his little game.... I was bored so I played along for a bit. I said is this _____? He text back yeah.... I send a picture....NO ANSWER. LOL now if he trully didnt know me or if he was good at playing the game he would have text back SORRY I STILL DONT KNOW WHO THIS IS.... or something along those lines.
So now not only do I KNOW that YOU KNOW exactly who this is, I know your obviously still upset that things didnt go your way. This coming from a grown ass man thats almost 30? Its so immature grown up be a man about yours and just say I dont want to talk to you for whatever reason and move on. Im a grown ass woman I can handle it trust me it's not going to make or break me.
After that I LMAO, Shrugged my shoulders and went back to watching TV, it didnt hurt my feelings and I have no hard feelings about it. It provided a wonderful laugh lol
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
YOU writing disses WE getting money
Nicki Minaj VS....Keys?
While I am a fan of Nicki Minaj I will most definitely give props to those who deserve it and the girl (Keys) can spit....Buuuuuut I wouldnt necessarily say she goes harder than Nicki Minaj, maybe just as hard? But why go after Nicki if you feel shes so weak and she can't rap? Because you only go after the people that you feel are the BEST, the people that you feel are on top! You're not going to waste your time on people you honestly feel are really weak, your better than that. If Jay-Z and Soulja Boy had beef (for whatever reason) I highly doubt you're gonna hear a diss track directed at Soulja Boy from Jay like really, he wouldn't be worth the time. You are going to go after the person you feel is the very best because if you successfully knock them off the thrown then you're going to take their spot. Makes sense dont it. I mean am I right or am I right. I can't accurately judge Keys 100% because I have yet to hear her spit something not aimed directly at Nicki Minaj. When I hear her rap about something other than Nicki then we can go from there. For right now Nicki's crown is safe she's not touching it...NO DISRESPECT JUST OPINION ALL COMMENTS ARE WELCOME
ITTY BITTY PIGGY
KEYS DISS NICKI MINAJ
While I am a fan of Nicki Minaj I will most definitely give props to those who deserve it and the girl (Keys) can spit....Buuuuuut I wouldnt necessarily say she goes harder than Nicki Minaj, maybe just as hard? But why go after Nicki if you feel shes so weak and she can't rap? Because you only go after the people that you feel are the BEST, the people that you feel are on top! You're not going to waste your time on people you honestly feel are really weak, your better than that. If Jay-Z and Soulja Boy had beef (for whatever reason) I highly doubt you're gonna hear a diss track directed at Soulja Boy from Jay like really, he wouldn't be worth the time. You are going to go after the person you feel is the very best because if you successfully knock them off the thrown then you're going to take their spot. Makes sense dont it. I mean am I right or am I right. I can't accurately judge Keys 100% because I have yet to hear her spit something not aimed directly at Nicki Minaj. When I hear her rap about something other than Nicki then we can go from there. For right now Nicki's crown is safe she's not touching it...NO DISRESPECT JUST OPINION ALL COMMENTS ARE WELCOME
ITTY BITTY PIGGY
KEYS DISS NICKI MINAJ
Monday, April 12, 2010
Loooonnnnngggggg Time No See!
Man its been like what months since I have posted anything new right? Well lets see my computer f*cking broke (if you're following me on twitter [@M0neyChaseMe] then you already know that) and noooo body that i took it to knew what the hell was going on. So finally I called Dell and they wiped absolutely EVERYTHING out and I had to start all over but they atleast got it to where I was able to log on buuut couldnt connect to the internet (bummer).
BTW all this happened before school so I had to start the new semester without my love. Got swamped in assignments and test and the home desktop wont log onto blogger (for whatever reason) so I still wasnt able to update until....FINALLY I took my laptop to this little shop not to far from school and they were able to fix it and now I can get on the internet.
However my computer is still an empty shell I'll be starting the long ass process of putting all the crap from my external hard drive back on the laptop soon (=\). But it is safe to say I am definitely back on Twitter and Blogger =]
BTW all this happened before school so I had to start the new semester without my love. Got swamped in assignments and test and the home desktop wont log onto blogger (for whatever reason) so I still wasnt able to update until....FINALLY I took my laptop to this little shop not to far from school and they were able to fix it and now I can get on the internet.
However my computer is still an empty shell I'll be starting the long ass process of putting all the crap from my external hard drive back on the laptop soon (=\). But it is safe to say I am definitely back on Twitter and Blogger =]
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