Poetic Unjustice

really right now i should be paying attention in class right now buuuuuut this class as always is fairly boring and the professor is lecturing straight from the book well in this case straight from some lecture notes she posted which give us (well me) even more of a reason not to pay attention....

anyway I was sitting going through some note and such in my computer that I write when I'm bored or I just need to get something out of my system and It made me think about some of the poems that I have written and will write.... and how so very badly I want to post some up on here to give my (invisible) readers a look at my talent (?). But i cant because I am afraid to, I have an intense fear and belief that someone will steal my poetry and publish it in something or claim it as their own without ever giving credit where credit is due....

Maybe this fear is irrational or maybe not because I've had some people (that I knew) copy some of my poems/writings before and not give me credit.... see that way atleast I knew who the people were and had a certain degree of control over use and spread of my material... here i would never know untill someone quoted it back or i saw it plastered in a newspaper, magazine or some online forum.... then it would be a battle to prove who wrote it first (even though i keep hardcopies with dates on everything I write). I compare it to a birth mother battling an adoptive more for a child.

so then I thought maybe I could just write poems specifically for the blog and then it would be whatever if they got stolen buuuuuut thats kind of like asking someone to love half of their baby... what? Not Possible. I put 110% effort into anything that I write if not more and they each have meaning to me even the crappy ones I wrote when I was just starting out.... anyway soooo now Im conflicted on one hand I want to post poems and such but on the other hand Im scared to... what to do, what to do?